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Life inspiration?!

My inspiration for this month came from the idea or realization that all moments in life lead to something, there are no lost or purposeless experiences. They all teach us something or will bring us somewhere (profound eyeopener right?!). For example, when I came to Bolivia I worked at first in a job that made me very unhappy. I quit right away and felt as if I had wasted my time there. But then when another school called me and asked me about what I could teach I repeated what someone had told me during those few shitty days in the wrong job. So there you go, it was a useful experience that led me to a job I love! Everything has to be the way it is because it leads us to learn the things we need to learn.

Internship disappointments

Another example: a couple of years ago I worked for the UN in Geneva as an intern and I once asked my boss why they hired me. She told me that I was the only one with experience living in Africa. She referred to the three months I spent in Zambia. I didn’t do much while I was there although I learned more life lessons in those three months than in my whole life before that. But I never would have thought that would lead to the internship of my life in Geneva. Even when I got that particular internship I wasn’t that excited about it. I just had been refused to work with the Dutch embassy in Zimbabwe and that sounded so much more exciting than staying in Europe and working for such a big bureaucratic organization. But in the end Geneva changed my life and led me to Bolivia.


Only in the aftermath when she felt the love of people who were there for her and connected with her. But the loss itself remained a mystery and a painful experience
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And then there are the experiences that are just painful and it seems cruel to say they are there to teach you something. The actress Michelle Williams, who lost Heath Ledger, the father of her daughter, said in an interview that she never found any answer or lesson in his death. Only in the aftermath when she felt the love of people who were there for her and connected with her. But the loss itself remained a mystery and a painful experience.

I don’t know, I am no guru or expert in these big life questions. I just think that sometimes it helps to know that most moments in life will lead to something even when we have no idea to what!

Veel liefs, Adinde

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